Tuesday, February 19, 2013

My bucket list

1: Create a band
2: Discover time travel
3: Travel to the end of the universe
4: Find out if there really is a God
5:Find out what is love
6:

Life

Life as we know it is all a huge lie.
It's unfair, it betrays us, and it toys with us.
We can't survive the misery it always puts us through.
We watch ourselves fade away in all the despair.
 We do anything to escape the pain by going numb.
But we always go back to reality.
We can never escape it.
Do we love to hate?
Or do we hate to love?
Do we really need everything we want?
Or do we really want everything we need?
What's our purpose in life?
Do we really want to live through this tragedy?
Through the corruption and the disaster we still live.
But times always get tougher.
So we rob and steal to feed our starving families.
But it never helps.
It only makes it worse.
And it rampages through the streets.
It takes everything from us.
It leaves us empty handed.
And it suffocates us.
Ironically
we want more.

Love

Some people always wonder, what is it like to be in love?
Some people always think love is pain. Or hate. Some people think they'll feel pain.
Others don't believe in it. Some believe they'll never fall out of love. Some people don't even like anyone and hate themselves and don't accept themselves enough to go out with someone.
But love is nothing like that.

This is what love is.
Love is the most intense emotion anyone can have for any type of person or being. Love can belong in anyone's heart, and anyone can feel, love, and be loved.

Love has no boundaries. It has no limits. It doesn't have a clear definition. It is just love. It's random, spontaneous, and it's life-changing.

It makes you want to achieve the impossible to make the person you care the most about happy. It makes you want to be with that person for the rest of your life. It makes you want to know if that person is thinking about you, or if that person loves you as much as you love them. Love is painful, wherever it's right or wrong. It's always the feeling you get when that person is near you. It makes your heart beat faster, your stomach fills with butterflies, and you feel like you could just hug that person and never let them go out of your grasp.

You hopelessly can't stop thinking about that person. You can't stop picturing that person walking down the hallway and smiling and waving at you. Or stopping to hug you. You can't stop thinking about the times whenever you laugh with them.
And whenever you think of them, you involuntary smile, and you can't help saying that you love that person.

Love is what connects two people together. It holds no doubts. It can bring together two unlikely people to be together. It can bring together people half the world away. It can both break hearts yet sew them together again. It's both a blessing and a curse.

It's a feeling that comes out of nowhere. It may be love at first sight, and it can be slow, but long-lasting love. You never exactly realize or why you love that person but you soon realize you are in love when they are the only thing on your mind. It may just be the last thing that you think about when you go to sleep, and the first thing that you think about when you wake up, but it is also always the subject of your dreams, the pain in your heart, the beating in your heart, it's the thing that makes you keep fighting for them. It's the thing that keeps you alive no matter what, and it's the thing that makes you want to live life.

It's the thing that makes you see every single bit of good and bad in everyone of us.
It's the feeling that you get when you want to tell their person they're beautiful, that they're smart and unique in their own little ways.

And love isn't lusting for that person's looks or traits. Love is the lust for that person's soul.

Love is when, after you fall for that person's personality, every single thing about them becomes beautiful.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Drug of Life

This is no hallucination
You're alive
Everything is real
No animation
Get up from the pit she threw you into
Climb up from the depths
Dust yourself off
and set the world on fire

Wake up, wake up
this is no hallucination
this is what your dreams are made off
but you better take her down with you
if you can't get up again

They say it always gets better over time
but they lied
as time passes it gets harder
you can't get over it
you try to forget it
all the memories collected
all the thoughts locked away
all the time wasted

so you kill
you betray, you steal, you bribe
to try to forget it
but you can't throw away all your memories away
you can never live again
you fall again
you're rolling down a hill
you try to stop yourself
you break your bones while trying
you finally do
but the hill is too steep
so something pushes you
and you roll down again

it was her again
you pray
for her to leave you
but your prayer is never answered
she keeps calling you
but you listened to her
and she betrays you for the fun of it

so you kill
Genocide, Anarchy, Cross-Eyed Killer
and she never held your hand
she let you fall
when you screamed her name to the sky
everyday
Screaming your name into the sky

she sat back with her shades on
and watched you die
Liquor and gun in her hand, she watched over the pit
making sure you stayed there

so I killed
I betrayed, crushed, poisoned
I remember the day
every sound and smell of it
it was just like in a photograph
the sand was falling
the earth was shaking

So wake up
Stop living through a hourglass window
Smash it
Smash everything
Get your life back

It's our life
let's take it back
It's my life
You take it back

My declaration to mother nature
is that we won't listen to all the biblical propaganda
I remembered when I touched her
I needed her

Now she's an useless waste of human flesh
No, I won't fall into the disease again
I want nothing to do with her

Now she'll know what it's like to bleed
And you'll know what it's like to live

So just wake up

Eden

Pursue what you really want
Don’t let anything stop you
No matter what, get what you want
Nothing bad will ever come from getting what you desire
Forget the rules, no one will ever find out
Living your life this way will only bring great satisfaction
so take it all and never give anything anymore

Don’t listen to the words of a snake
 
trust the words of your heart
and call out to the sky
for God’s sweet nectar of life